Jody asked me if I wanted to write something on the family blog for father's day. Although I could never translate my feelings of being and having a father into words, I agreed to share some thoughts... some of my own, and some of those much wiser than myself.
I start with a poem from an unknown author:
Dear God, my little boy of three
has said his nightly prayer to Thee;
Before his eyes were closed in sleep
he asked that Thou his soul would keep.
And I, still kneeling at his bed,
my hand upon his tousled head,
do ask, with deep humility
that Thou, dear Lord, remember me.
Make me kind, Lord, a worthy dad,
that I may lead this bright young lad,
in pathways ever fair and bright,
help him keep his steps aright.
Oh, God, his trust must never be
destroyed or ever marred by me.
So, for the simple things he prayed,
with innocent voice so unafraid.
I, trembling, ask the same from Thee.
Dear Lord, kind Lord, remember me.
On many occasions at night, I watch my children as they sleep. I study their precious faces and contemplate my relationship, my time, my future with each of them.
Emily, my firstborn, will be 6 in less than 4 months. Easy it is to recall the vivid picture in my mind the precise moment she departed heaven and entered my life... love at first sight for the second time in my life. My heart aches as I imagine her leaving our home in as little as 12 years. That translates, in this sentimental dad's heart, to 1/3 of my time with my little girl is spent. She and I have experienced so many wonderful moments together... just the two of us. She will always be my little girl. I hope and pray constantly that I use each day as the gift it is to be with her, listen to her, watch her grow, and relish the experience of life with her. Every moment I love you... my little sweet pea!
Brett, my second born, is now 3 as the poem above coincidentally states. When I ponder his birth, I remember his eyes opened slow and steady straightway in my direction as his head came out... those profound, heavenly eyes penetrated my soul and it was love at first sight for the third time in my life as tears quenched my face. A flash of lightning, a crash of thunder, and rain poured down seconds after Brett completed his birth. A rainbow soon followed as I peered through the window at the Bountiful temple hillside. I will always know why God cried that day... he had let one of his favorites go off to school. Jody has heard me express on occasion that I feel Brett and I were best friends in heaven before this life. We fought side by side in the war in heaven. He is my little man and I cherish the blessing of being his father and best friend in this life. I would give my life for him... or any of my children.
Savannah, my third born, is growing so quickly and is already 5+1/2 months old! Her birth was so fast and an exciting one! Jody pushed almost 4 hours with Emily, barely over an hour with Brett, and just over 6 minutes with Savannah! Not knowing what gender she'd be... it was special and fun to tell Jody, "it's a girl!" Quite certainly my favorite part of our trip to Washington/Oregon last month was getting to know Savannah in greater depth. I held her in my arms at every opportunity and re-lived the first-time wonderment of the Oregon Coast by watching her expressions. She is pure joy and her heart is full of love... it truly is an absolute honor to have her in my life... my little Sweetie Pie! I look forward to the future and watching her grow under the close vigilance of big sister and brother.
To quote the late Gordon B. Hinkley: "How much more beautiful would be the world and the society in which we live if every father looked upon his children as the most precious of his assets, if he led them by the power of his example in kindness and love, and if in times of stress he blessed them by the authority of the holy priesthood;... said Isaiah of old, "All thy children shall be taught of the Lord; and great shall be the peace of thy children." To which I add, "Great also shall be the peace and the gladness of their fathers and mothers."
Save only Jody, I have no greater friends or cherished blessings in my life than my children. I am in the truest sense an extremely wealthy man... I am rich in love. I strive to live my life in such a way as to demonstrate that I do not take them for granted. My life is full... what greater blessings or accomplishments do I have left in life? None... no none greater than my wife and children. In fact, not one treasure this world or life has to offer succeeds in comparison to the value at which I hold my priceless family... not one.
To my daddy and to my Heavenly Father, I bid happy fathers' day! I know you both love and cherish me... of this I have no doubt. There are innumerable examples of this love I have witnessed in my blessed life. Dad, you always spelled your love for me as T-I-M-E. You also love me every day that you love my mother... thank you for your example of loving unconditionally. You taught me to love all people... no matter their shape, size, or color. I never expect you to be perfect, but you are the perfect father for me in this life... I hope you always remember that. I am thankful for fathers and the true blessing of being trusted to be a father. I will one day face our eternal Father and thank Him with full heart and emptying eyes.
To any father who reads these words, remember: love them, teach them, respect them, and pray with them and for them.
God bless you and yours... always,
Mike
close as they get older. Having grown up with three little sisters, I know the drama it can bring; whether it is "borrowing" clothes, silly fights, or the emotional drama of 4 teenage girls in one house, it is still so much fun. I am so close to my sisters now and am eternally grateful to have them in my life. I hope Em and Savannah can be the same. Savannah watches everything around her and tries to immitate it. Here is a picture of my Dad sticking out his tongue, she kept trying to grab it! He is such a good Papa to my kids, thanks Dad! Savannah can sit up in the saucer now and loves to jump up and down in it. It is the same saucer that Emily and Brett shared and it is fun to see her enjoy it too. Recently she learned to twirl
the balls around in the rattle. It is so fun to see her learn new skills every day! She is such a happy baby, and a big talker! She bablles constantly, and it can get pretty loud especially in church! It is so funny when we put her down to sleep for a nap or for the night, she will sit in bed and "talk" herself to sleep! She loves to look at the world around her and is taking everything in everywhere we go. We go on a family walk every night and she loves to look up at the trees as we walk by. She is eating rice cereal now, and makes a royal mess with it! Every time we put it in her mouth, she promptly spits it back out again! When she is done eating it, and I am cleaning her face, she sticks her tongue out and wants it to be cleaned off too! So cute!
Brett is such a good brother, and wants to be with Savannah constantly. Every second of the day he is asking to hold her, kiss her, etc! In the car we tell him not to touch her, but he can't help it! He will tell us, "she wants to hold my hand!" Despite all the mauling he is so sweet to her. If she cries he instantly starts singing, "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" to her. Since I didn't have a brother growing up, I am excited to see how close they will become as they grow up. The last six months have been a blast and I look forward to the next six!
